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Saturday, March 10, 2007

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 20:44:19 GMT

Oh, right. I am still very much alive.

It is a damn lovely day in Chicago.

Leave the West Behind!

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 13:22:15 GMT

Well, kids, I'm outta here. Off to Japan!

You can catch my adventures at my travel blog.

dewa, mata ne!

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 19:51:12 GMT

God fucking damnit

I had to go fuck up again

Somebody take my goddamn phone away from me for good

Now I'm hungover and paying the price, okay? I don't know what more to say.

Finals week! AAAAH!

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 14:34:08 GMT

Ew.

So here was/is my finals schedule so far:

Wednesday - Japanese oral exam (did relatively well, only slipped up a few times, Kawai-sensei seemed happy)
Thursday - Graphic Novel final project due (Again, did relatively well, a few people laughed at my one attempt at a joke in it, and I spent 20+ hours on it. So hah!)
Friday - Nothing. Sat around doing reading for my Mind paper. Crashed at Joe's.
Saturday - Started the paper, helped Zach and apartmentmates move couches, etc into their place. Had two lunches and dinner at cafe Corea. I now feel like I weigh two tons.
Sunday - Japanese studying day and writing more of the paper.
Monday - Japanese written exam. HELP ME. Also more of the paper to write.
Tuesday - paper due by noon. Then back to Palevsky, lunch with Joe, and being mercifully finished!

The rest of the week is a jumble of sleep, sleep, movies, Joe, and sleep. I head back to Jersey on Saturday, which I am more than ready to do--except for leaving Joe. He heads out early-ish Friday, so Thursday night will probably be spent apart.

It's becoming obvious that I have really old-fashioned ideas about romance. Keeping things casual is great when it's obvious that things like this summer are coming up--and believe me, I tried--but something about the idea of being with somebody and remaining detached for the sake of a future event, not living in the moment about it, bothers me. It's been relatively casual so far but we've become really attached to each other. I'll miss him this summer. He says he'll miss me. We'll write postcards and call. I'll have to answer "kareshi tte ja nai" when people ask me about him in Japan. When we get back, we'll start up again.

But as for living in the moment... I need brunch.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Wed, 24 May 2006 15:07:41 GMT

Must be your skin that I'm sinking in
Must be for real, 'cause now I can feel
And I didn't mind
It's not my kind,
Not my time to wonder why

things?

Mon, 22 May 2006 16:35:52 GMT

Saw George Clinton and Parliament Funkadelic Saturday, with RJD2 and Dar Williams opening. Reached the critical mass of funk.

Cooked tempura and ramen last night with Joe, after a failed attempt Saturday.

Secured my spot in the program in Japan for this summer today.

Finally had some time to myself to read, for once.

Ran to catch the Shoreland bus this morning.

Still can't find my cell phone charger.

No immediate work to do today.

Life is good.

Thinking hurts my brain right now

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 17:10:34 GMT

Stolen from Jen, because I don't really want to be doing anything right now.

my ex is: the spark for all my maladjusted behavior lately
my problem is: doing "normal"
maybe i should: stop thinking so much (thank you, Jen)
i love: my friends, my family, my nephew, and Hyde Park in the spring
i lose: my dignity from time to time
people say i'm: too impulsive and easily withdrawn
love is: what you make of it
i will always: live for the rush of being alive
forever is: beyond sight
i never wanted to: eat my vegetables
i think the current President: is a bumbling idiot
my past is: what makes me who I am
parties are for: being with friends and appreciating life
sex is for: that transcendant moment of connection with another person... at risk of sounding romantic. Or, of course, for when you're really horny.
kisses are best when: they're unsolicited
i really want: to believe in something
i have low tolerance for people who: take themselves too seriously
Today: is a lovely day in Hyde Park
my cat is: a black kitten named JiJi (not yet born, of course)
my boyfriend is: a sweet guy who's way too nice to me
my fashion says: behold the power of the breezy skirt!
when i'm upset i turn to: my roommate and my bed
when i'm stressed i: need to be left alone to get done what I need to do
i regret the time: I acted absurdly passive-aggressive to Leslie over something that wasn't even true
i miss it when we used to: go out in the backyard and build absurd squirrel traps and bait them with acorns (remember, palfy?)
i wish i could go back to the time when: I was so sure about everything
i'll always remember the day: I held my nephew in my arms for the first time, the day he was born
i can't forget: a lot of things I wish I could
my favorite place to be is: on the quads, lingering and chatting with friends, with no place to go

Because I JUST HAD THE LONGEST DAY EVER

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 05:28:09 GMT

Deal with it, I'm tired!

ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with?: Probably Jan
2. What is your weapon of choice?: Gonna have to go with Naginata on that one, followed closely by razor fan.
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?: Done it.
4. How about of the same sex?: Done it.
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?: Probably Jan was the last one to get peeved, though Zach was the last to really fly off the handle at me.
6. What is your pet peeve?: People refusing to apologize. I can tolerate anything EXCEPT that.
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?: I can only really have one person max on my shit list at a time, I've decided. So it just comes down to replacing the person on there... though to be honest, the turnover's really quick.

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?: make my bed... eish
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?: around 4 PM (god damn that was a hangover to write epics about)
4. What is the last lame excuse you made?: "I've been doing this since 1 this afternoon!" (made at 9:30, so not that lame... but still whiny)
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)?: Only when sick and bed-bound
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in?: To be honest, I can't even remember.
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?: Once.

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?: frappuccino T_T
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat?: dark plz IT MUST STILL BE BLEEDING
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?: 11 shots in just under an hour, end of fall quarter. Bad. Bad. Idea.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?: *sigh* Weight Watchers. Fine. For two months.
5. Do you have an issue with your weight?: Always, though I've lost a lot and I'm coming to like where I'm at.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?: spicy
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "LUNCH"?: The Moose Party said something at the SG debate today about eating dogs...

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?: *cough* Next. (I love how quaint my answers were in high school, the last time I took this...)
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?: see above
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?: Yes. -_-;;
4. Have you "done it"?: Yes.
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?: Eyes, relative overall grooming (no strange odors, essentially) and no long nails.

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own?: Two
2. What's your guilty pleasure store?: -_- Old Navy.
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?: Pay off this nonsense, Japan, and my rent for the next two years.
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?: Rich, so I don't have to deal with the paparazzi
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?: sure thing
6. Have you ever stolen anything?: Never. And I am amazed by that for whatever reason.
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?: hard drive? almost none, though my 20-gig iPod's close to full

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?: Uhhh, I'll get back to you on that one. Probably Scav-related.
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?: my SAT scores, probably.
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?: Real happiness.
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?: Not at all.
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?: DDR competition back in high school. \m/
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?: Once, on a test back in 5th grade. So sue me.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of?: Survived a day which started at 7 a.m. and is still going even now, at 1:20 a.m., with no break time.

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?: A car. Good lord, a car.
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?: Darren, just to see what he'd do to the place.
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?: myself. I'm quite content.
4. Have you ever been cheated on?: Uh, now this is an ambiguity the likes of which I'm still sorting out. But I don't think so.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?: Shit yes. My shoulders are broad and I carried the nickname "thunder thighs" in my own family until I was 13. Thanks Dad.
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?: More unusual coloring (red hair especially)

PAST
First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Johnson :D
Last word you said: Out loud? "G'niiiight" to Zach/Pat/Chris
Last song you sang: "The Rain Song" by Zeppelin (silently, to myself, during the SG debates)
Last song stuck in your head: See above

PRESENT
What's in your CD player: Uhhh. Salsa music?
What color socks are you wearing: white with a gold stripe
What's under your bed: Leslie's bed!
What's the weather like: Night time (but relatively clear) and about 50
What time did you wake up today: 7 -_-;;

FUTURE
Are you going to college: Already here
Where do you want to go?: Heading to Japan this summer, then right back here (this is really my home) and INTO THE NEW APARTMENT
What is your career going to be: Rogue publishing agent/author/graphic novelist
Where are you going to live: Next year, the apartment on 53rd and Woodlawn. Eventually, some place with a big bed, a white down comforter, and somebody to share it with.
How many kids do you want: Uhhhh 3?
Kids' names: ...this is a bit ahead of my planning process?
Where do you want your honeymoon: see above, but someplace warm?
What kind of car will you have: one that gets me from point A to point B without unnecessary explosions

Monday, April 17, 2006

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 13:06:17 GMT

Immerse oneself in work and you won't notice the trivial things. Like other people. Maybe.

I'm still nursing myself. Is that wrong? Part of me is still crippled and I don't know what it's going to take to get it pulsing again. Maybe time, maybe opportunity, maybe just a concerted effort to not think about it so much. Man, that'd be nice.

This is gonna take some time. And it's going to work out alright, in the end.

bum bum bum

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 17:20:34 GMT

This weekend has been mildly surreal. Friday night was particularly... good? surprising? Serendipitous? That's it. Serendipity. And I've got a date next weekend. I hope. *crosses fingers* Damn you, 72 hour rule...

Otherwise, I'm swamped with homework for my graphic novel course. We have to do a four-panel grid every day of the week, so right now I'm doing the first three (Friday-Saturday-Sunday), but I just don't have the creative energy right now for whatever reason. I've even plugged in the lantern lights, and they're not helping. I'm sensing that a nap is in order.

Thunderstorm on the way. I wanna see lightning. I wanna stop being tired and braindead. GO GO GO.